I turned 45 today.
The age comes with a mixture of emotions. Though I may live to be 100 it is hard not to feel like my most productive years are disappearing quickly. Of course I ask myself what I’m doing with my life.
More specifically – how am I spending that limited universally undervalued currency I have – namely my TIME?
In all honesty I have to admit a lot of my time is spent on the web. Or to put it more truthfully, IN the web.
Perhaps you have noticed that my blogs have been languishing lately. It is not for wont of ideas. I have simply been processing how best to spend my “currency.”
I love to write. Writing is prayer for me. I thoroughly enjoy expressing myself via blogs and having what I write connect with others.
But I am in the middle of writing several books. I have the time at this stage in my life to be able to do so. That may not always be the case.
Yet how am I spending the bulk of my time? Staying stuck in the web.
Now blogging is not the culprit and you will see an increase in my posts in the near future. I just won’t be trying to write daily posts for 5 blogs. Hopefully I’ll be able to post at a consistent yet more manageable pace.
There are other temptations.
The web is so beautiful (just like the ones strung across the path glistening in the morning dew). There are many amazing things to experience that were totally unavailable 15 years ago. The internet is by far the most revolutionizing invention the past 100 years. We have yet to see its true potential.
But, and this is a big but, it is a MAJOR time waster.
Sure the web is beautiful. But like the one in nature, it is easy to get stuck in its sticky strands. And there are lots of spiders.
-Products I don’t need that I can buy with a click of the mouse and that magically appear on my doorstep.
-Beautiful Photoshopped people scantily clad or wearing nothing at all that create false images in my head of what true beauty is.
-Music, movies, and other media that while entertaining are only that and tempt the dishonest consumer to enjoy without paying.
-Lots of information that for the most part is VERY close to gossip and feeds something in me though it must not be very satisfying if I have to keep coming back for more.
A year from now I want to look back and see some books completed. I want to have stronger relationships with my loved ones. I want to have a deeper spiritual walk with God. I want to be better able to enjoy the beauty of the creation shining outside this black box.
I don’t want to be food for spiders.